Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Goodbye Old Friend

Well, today was my last day at my old job. To say it was easy to walk out of the bulding and away from my "family" there would be a lie. I know it was something I had to do and I am looking forward to my new job I'll be starting on Jan. 6th, but it's still hard to change. As I have mentioned before the people I have worked with over the last 6 years are not just my "co-workers" they are FAMILY. We have been together through marriages, divorces, births, deaths... You name it and we have experienced it TOGETHER. It's hard to leave a support system like that and go to a new place where you know noone. It's almost like being a kid going to a new school for the first time. I know we will all stay in touch, but it just won't be the same not seeing eachother everyday. I am grateful that God provided a new opportunity for me and I am sooooo thankful. I know there are a lot of people out there looking for jobs for months all the while trying to live off of unemployment. I am THANKFUL today, just a little sad.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Beautiful Reminder

Grab some tissues and watch this video-this is what Christmas is all about.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Boo Mama's Christmas Tour

Since this is my first year as a blogger naturally this is my first year to participate in "the tour" hosted by Boo Mama and boy am I excited! Now, let me warn you...I by no means live in a designer home showplace-I live with a small zoo (that includes 1 wild husband!) so lower your expectations, ignore any stray fur, and come on in!

When you first walk up to the front porch you will notice some really BIG and glittery ornaments hanging under the overhang. I think these are so fun and I really have no other place to display them, so I thought they made a nice addition to our "front porch ambience". Hey, that's what it's all about here in the South!

This year instead of a wreath I wanted to branch out a bit..I found this cool "grapeviney" container at Hobby Lobby for $10 and the flowers were half off at Stockdale's. I loved that they were unique looking and not just your run o' the mill poinsettia. How do you think it turned out?

As you make your way in the door you will come upon pretty much the only decorated area of the house, the living room. It is not a very big space and our furniture is a little overbearing in there so I try to keep things as minimal as I can because O' Christmas Tree lives in there!

The angel atop the tree has been in my family for years. She has the most beautiful porcelain face and pretty feather wings. Her gown is burgundy velvet so my color scheme tends to follow her attire! I have a lot of burgundy, gold, deep red, and green colors on the tree. I tend to lean more towards the "natural" look, meaning I load the tree up with a variety of "fake" pears, apples, grapes, and animals. Ironic huh?

Here are a few closeups of some of my favorite ornaments....

Now, don't laugh but I made these ornaments.....

I saw a similar idea on Kelly's blog and just changed it up a bit- I used the clear glass ornaments, took the shiny gift shred and put down inside the balls. Then I used glue to write our initials on the front, then I sprinkled the green glitter over the glue and looped ribbon through the top. They look a little Kindergarten-esque in the pictures, but I promise they look a little better in person!

These are just a few little accents on the side tables....the little tree was originally a Christmas Card holder but it didn't function very well in that capacity so I decided it was more decorative than functional. I love pine cones so I just put a few of those underneath the tree for a little decoration. Then, because I can't pass up anything glittery, I have a pretty deep burgundy poinsettia covered in glitter!

We have a modern style mirror that hangs above our couch and it just stuck out like a sore thumb! So, I found an old wreath I had and just hung it over the center of the mirror.

(I like this picture because you can see the reflection of the angel in the mirror)

Well, I hope you have enjoyed the tour as much as I enjoyed putting this together! Thanks so much for stopping by and.....


Thursday, December 11, 2008

Finding Work is Hard Work!!

This is what I feel like lately! Between resumes, applications, and interviews I am BEAT. One company I am interested in has interviewed me 3 times and now I am working on getting the elaborate backgrund check they do completed. I have had to submit records I didn't even know I still had! I am thankful that there are opportunities out there for me, but GEEZ. I don't want to be the president, I just want a JOB! Also, if anyone hasn't noticed, it is Christmas time. I have barely done any shopping and there are only 13 shopping days left until Christmas!!! AHHHH!! I really wanted to get back to the true meaning of Christmas this year though, not worry about presents, and just enjoy time with the people I love. But, I also LOVE to buy things. Especially for other people. I don't buy gifts because I feel obligated to. I do it because I enjoy giving. I love seeing the look on someone's face when they get something they really wanted or needed. So, needless to say, I will probably be out on Christmas Eve like a maniac frantically searching for everything I need to get!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Getting To Know You-Christmas 2008 Version

I saw this on Amanda's blog and thought it would be interesting...

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? Wrapping Paper! With lots of ribbon!
2. Real tree or Artificial? Artificial. Pre-lit. In 3 convenient sections. Snap and go!
3. When do you put up the tree? I NEVER get it put up the day after Thanksgiving! Always too much to do! Ususally get it up the 1st or so of December...
4. When do you take the tree down? HAHA....sometime between January and March!
5. Do you like eggnog? NO
6. Favorite gift received as a child? My Barbie dreamhouse that had an elevator!!
7. Hardest person to buy for? My husband. The man has everything. In our garage.
8. Easiest person to buy for? Mom
9. Do you have a nativity scene? Yes
10. Mail or email Christmas cards? Mail
11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received? I've gotten some pretty ugly sweaters in my day...
12. Favorite Christmas Movie? It's a Wonderful Life
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? I do alot on online and sometimes I pick things up at all times of the year and just put it back until Christmas.
14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? No.
15. Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? Turkey and Dressing
16. Lights on the tree? clear lights only.
17. Favorite Christmas song? O' Holy Night (Celine Dion version is BEAUTIFUL) I cry every time I hear it!
18. Travel at Christmas or stay at home? Home
19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer's? Dasher, Dancer, Prancer, Vixon, Comet, Cupid, Donner, Blitzen, Rudolph
20. Angel on the tree top or a star? We have a beautiful porcelain faced angel that has been in our family for years.
21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or Christmas morning? Christmas Eve usually
22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? RUDE people in stores and CRAZY people on the road.
23. What theme or color are you using? I use cranberry red and gold
24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? Turkey and Dressing
25.What do you want for Christmas this year? A new job!

Now everyone else play along!!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Time To Be Thankful.

Even though I am losing my job soon I wanted to remind myself that there are still so many things in my life to be thankful for. Some are BIG and some are SMALL but they are all equally great things to cherish. In times of despair I think it's always good to realize what we do have and appreciate the life we have been given. So, here is my list of things I am thankful for (in no real order) just randomly thrown together.

1. Starbucks hot chocolate

2. Being with my family

3. Warm Pie w/ice cream

4. Turkey & Dressing

5. Deviled Eggs

(I think I focus a little too much on FOOD!)

6. My wonderful husband

7. My work family

8. Having extra blankets on COLD nights

9. My precious furbabies

10. Friendships that have lasted a lifetime

11. Mulled cider candles

12. Getting to squeeze and hug everyone's babies

13. Shopping for Christmas gifts

14. Being ABLE to shop for Christmas gifts

15. Purell Hand Sanitizer

16. A warm home

17. Bic ReAction Ball Point Pens (in BLUE)

18. Watching the Wizard of Oz on TV

19. Pretty Sweaters


Friday, November 21, 2008

Love Letter

I don't know where to begin in writing this. I want this to serve as concrete proof of how much I loved you. Before we even met. I have dreamt of you so many times I feel like you are real. There are no words to describe the way I feel about you. I love you so much I will understand if I never get to see you. I know God has a plan. I may not understand it now, but I will. Someday. This is such a crazy and stressful time in my life but, all I can think about is what it would be like to have you here. With me. I know you are there. I can see your face. I can hear your laugh. I just can't touch you. You are the biggest dream I have ever had. I have never wanted anything more in this life. I hope that one day I can tell you all this in person. Face to face. I want to whisper it in your ear or write it in a note when you go away somewhere. I want you to meet us. I want you to know the most wonderful man on earth. You would probably call him Dad. He would be so thrilled to hold you and play with you. He would tell you all kinds of stories and teach you so many things. The biggest thing he would share with you though is his heart. He would live and breathe for you. We know you are resting in the palm of His hand. But, He has to give you to us. We want you here. We pray for you. We always will. We hope He chooses us to be your parents. Until the day that we get to kiss your sweet face just know this; there are no two people in the world that will ever love you as much as we do. We know that the pain we feel now will soon be met with sheer delight. Until then....


Mom & Dad

As of yet,

We've not met,

But I'm here,



For You.

Monday, November 17, 2008

Blessings for Kelly

As part of Kelly's Bloggy Baby Shower, hosted on Jenna's blog, I thought I would share what a blessing Kelly has been to me during my struggle with infertility. I stumbled upon Kelly's blog totally by accident one day while looking for a recipe. I began reading her posts and I felt like I could have written some of them myself. But there was a difference, she had a different way of looking at things than I had at the time. There were times that I just wanted to give up, I was ANGRY at God, and I just couldn't understand why MY prayers weren't being answered. Could He not hear me? Was I not obedient enough? Why was this happening to ME? But, I soon learned that it wasn't just me. Here was Kelly, an obedient servant of God, still waiting. But she always remained FAITHFUL. I felt so ridiculous thinking the things I was thinking when here was a beautiful, loving, (as close to perfect as you can get without it being sickening) Ha! woman who deserved this as much, if not more, than I did. But she wasn't complaining. She was willing to wait in His time. Then, a few posts later there was the news.....I'M PREGNANT! I wanted to jump up and down with joy! All of her patience had paid off. She now had a sweet little miracle to look forward to, and, so did I. She renewed in me the faith I had lost. It was in that moment that I felt like I received a miracle too. I let the Lord back into my life. I was ready to TRUST in HIM. Kelly gave me that gift. How can you ever thank someone enough for that??? I wrote to Kelly and explained my story to her. It was like writing to an old friend that had been such an inspiration in your life. Then, in her reply she thanked me! What? I have never encountered someone as sweet as Kelly. She is so blessed and she is always thankful for the blessings she receives. Most importantly though, she deserves it ALL. I know Kelly is so ready to see her dream realized in the eyes of her sweet baby girl, and although I can't give any real parenting "advice", I can tell you this Kelly, teach Harper to love the Lord the way you have. Let her know just how wanted and dreamt of she was. If she turns out to be 1/10 the woman you are then you have done your job well. She will soon know just how blessed SHE is to have YOU as her Mama. Congratulations Kelly! I cannot wait for you to get to hold your sweet angel in your arms.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
Psalm 139:14

Monday, November 10, 2008

Bad News.

After almost six years with my employer I got the news today that more than likely, in early February, I along with several thousands other people will be unemployed. This has been on our horizon for some time now but it was just something that none of us wanted to really believe. Those of us here at our facility are more family than co-workers. We have always worked well together and have come to know each other very well over the years. Not only is this an uncertain financial issue for our family, but I know there are so many others that this will impact in such a negative way. Please pray for all of us as we are forced out into a scary job market, with so little jobs to go around. I know our company is just one of many that have been affected by the economy and I am sure we won't be the last. This is such a trying time in our country and I feel blessed to have been given the opportunity to do a job I loved with people I loved for so many years.

Thursday, October 23, 2008


Just a little update on how things are going....first of all I want to thank everyone for their prayers and sweet comments about my Mom. We went to a neurologist last week and it his oppinion that she does NOT have Alzheimer's! Praise the Lord! He seems to think she had an episode of "Transient Global Amnesia" and that it was more than likely a one time incident. Her spirits have lifted quite a bit and so have mine! Even though I was telling myself I could handle whatever happened I am so glad we won't be facing such a devastating thing as Alzheimer's. I REALLY do appreciate everyone that reached out to us and offered support. Thank You!

Now on to more exciting things...we are still actively trying for our "miracle" and I am going back to see the fertility specialist next week to discuss IUI. This is the most "affordable" option for us right now and the least invasive. Has anyone had any experience (good or bad)with this that you would be willing to share? I can use all the advice I can get!

Things are really crazy for me at work right now, we are going through a transition and so many people are worried about the future of our company. I am trying to take it all in stride and not worry, but anyone who knows me knows I WORRY. I just pray that things will work out and that this economy of ours will pickup soon! Lord knows we need some change!

Have a great weekend everyone!

Response to Anonymous:My Mother takes Pravachol (Pravastatin)-she has been on it for a little over a year now (she had an MI last August) Are there some links to these drugs and TGA??

Amanda-we went to see Dr. Gibson @ Northgate Neurology, thanks so much for your sweet words!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

I wish I could take it all away...

As stated in my last post my Mother was diagnosed last week with Alzheimer's disease. We have been told she is in the early stages and was prescribed a medication to help slow the progression of the disease. I know this is not exactly the kind of thing people like to read on blogs, but I feel like this is an outlet for me to let go of some things that have really been bothering me. This is in no way intended to reflect negatively on my Mother. I love her more than life itself, despite our past or anything that has ever happened between us. With that said, she has always for as long as I can remember been a pessimistic person. Things have always been doom and gloom from her perspective. I think a lot of that stems from the abuse and mistreatment she suffered at the hands of her own parents. She has never been able to let those things go. Instead of carrying the scars of her past with her she has enabled them to become open wounds that are literally eating her alive every day. With this recent diagnosis she has really reached new lows of disparity. She is extremely depressed and at this point has driven me to tears several times. I am trying to understand and sympathize with her feelings, but I just don't understand the NEGATIVITY. She has asked me several times, "Well, what if it was you?" and I have really pondered that question a lot lately. I know that you can never really predict how you are going to react in a situation that you have never been faced with but I can tell you this. I would be thankful for what I still had. A family that not only loved me, but was willing and ready to tackle this head-on with me, and most importantly a God that is willing to carry these burdens for me. She has lost this somehow and I just feel like she is so empty inside. I want to help her. I want to make all this go away. But I am not humanly capable of taking this all away. And it's killing me. I know this may sound selfish of me but I cannot handle the emotional burden that she is placing on me with her negative thoughts and words. I have been praying and praying for God to give me some kind of wisdom or thought process to help me deal with this. I know we can and WILL handle the disease, but her heart I'm not so sure I can fix.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Prayer Needed!

We got some really scary news today in my family. My Mother was diagnosed with early onset alzheimer's disease with dimentia. She has been prescribed something I have never heard of called the Exelon Patch. It is supposed to slow the progression of the disease or keep it from getting worse.The doctor also advised it would be a good idea for her to retire. Tomorrow is her 62nd birthday and she has been a nurse for almost 30 years. Her work is her life. This is such a scary time for her I'm sure, but also for our family. Please pray for us.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

25 Things That Make Me Happy....

I have seen this on a few other blogs and thought it was a nice way to share what makes you happiest!

25 Little Things That Make Me Happy

1.Shopping for gifts (especially baby gifts)
2.Baking (cakes,cookies,cupcakes)
3.The smell of new shoes.
4.Curling up on the couch with my hubby.
5.A freshly groomed puppy.
6.Children's laughter.
7.My Car. I LOVE cars and driving a little too fast!
8.My husband's cologne.
9.Clean towels.
11.Ink Pens (blue ones)
12. Cute thank you notes.
13.Pictures in frames.
14.Library books.
15.Fresh cut grass.
16.Sunshine through the clouds.
17.Long showers.
18.Old friends.
19.Good smelling shampoo.
20.Long weekends.
21.Ice water.
22.SWEET Tea.
23.Sleeping with the windows open.
24.Soft blankets.
25.Family gatherings. (Even when it's not a holiday)

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

My DREAM Nursery!

So, Kelly (the best blogger EVER) had the idea that we should all do a tour of our nursery, or in my case, my DREAM nursery that will hopefully be fulfilled soon!

In an ode to "The Sound of Music", These are a few of my favorite things......

I think this is such a beautiful crib! I love the four posters and the little bunny finnials on top just make it all the more precious!!

I LOVE this bedding! I love the color combinations of the pink and green and all the frilly little details like the rosettes on the dust ruffle!

This is a monogrammed armoire that would provide so much great storage and ya'll know how we southern girls love ALL things monogrammed!

Aren't these the most adorable things ever?? I love painted artwork in nurseries and these have the colors of pink and green that would be the main color scheme. Plus they are so darn cute!

This is a changing table that just so happens to look like a magnificent piece of furniture. I would love to have classic pieces in her room that could "grow" with her. The top is removable so this could be used later on as a dresser. Maybe hang a venetian mirror on the wall behind it...so sweet!

Now what princess room would be complete without a chandelier?? I think this one is so elegant but still young looking. Plus it's sparkly!

I love area rugs in nurseries. I think they make it so much more cozy. I love the diamond design on this one and of course the colors....PINK and GREEN!

Custom name plaque to hang over the crib....ours would say A R V ! Yay!

Beautiful little bookcase to house the MANY books our child would have. I love this style and think it looks SO feminine.

And what fabulous nursery would be complete without a big ol' comfy chair! I love the fabric on this one and think it would such a great place to curl up and relax on those sleepless nights!

Well, this concludes the tour of my "Dream Nursery". I had SOOOO much fun doing this and want to thank Kelly for such a wonderful idea. It does help give you hope when you can imagine all these glorious things! God Bless!!

Thursday, October 2, 2008


Has anyone else happened upon these things in stores?? They are VERY realistic looking FAKE pumpkins that you can "carve". I saw them the other day at Hobby Lobby and thought they were so neat. Especially if you don't like the whole mess associated with carving a real one. I however enjoy the whole process. Especially toasting the seeds! YUM! I just thought these were pretty cute and thought I would pass it along. They are kind of pricey though, the ones I saw were about $30!

Three Red Marbles

My sister forwarded this story to me a few weeeks ago and I have just now had the time to read it. Take a few minutes (and a tissue) and read this...

One day Mr. Miller was bagging some early potatoes for me. I noticed a small boy, delicate of bone and feature, ragged but clean, hungrily apprising a basket of freshly picked green peas.

I paid for my potatoes but was also drawn to the display of fresh green peas. I am a pushover for creamed peas and new potatoes.

Pondering the peas, I couldn't help overhearing the conversation between Mr. Miller and the ragged boy next to me.

"Hello Barry, how are you today?"

"H'lo, Mr. Miller. Fine, thank ya. Jus' admirin' them peas ... sure look good."

"They are good, Barry. How's your Ma?"

"Fine. Gittin' stronger alla' time."

"Good. Anything I can help you with?"

"No, Sir. Jus' admirin' them peas."

"Would you like to take some home?"

"No, Sir. Got nuthin' to pay for 'em with."

"Well, what have you to trade me for some of those peas?"

"All I got's my prize marble here."

"Is that right? Let me see it."

"Here 'tis. She's a dandy."

"I can see that. Hmmmmm, only thing is this one is blue and I sort of go for red. Do you have a red one like this at home?"
"Not zackley ... but almost."

"Tell you what. Take this sack of peas home with you and next trip this way let me look at that red marble."

"Sure will. Thanks Mr. Miller."

Mrs. Miller, who had been standing nearby, came over to help me. With a smile she said, "There are two other boys like him in our community, all three are in very poor circumstances. Jim just loves to bargain with them for peas, apples, tomatoes, or whatever. When they come back with their red marbles, and they always do, he decides he doesn't like red after all and he sends them home with a bag of produce for a green marble or an orange one, perhaps."

I left the stand smiling to myself, impressed with this man. A short time later I moved to Colorado but I never forgot the story of this man, the boys, and their bartering.

Several years went by, each more rapid that the previous one. Just recently I had occasion to visit some old friends in that Idaho community and while I was there learned that Mr. Miller had died. They were having his viewing that evening and knowing my friends wanted to go, I agreed to accompany them.

Upon arrival at the mortuary we fell into line to meet the relatives of the deceased and to offer whatever words of comfort we could. Ahead of us in line were three young men. One was in an army uniform and the other two wore nice haircuts, dark suits and white shirts ... all very professional looking.

They approached Mrs. Miller, standing composed and smiling by her husband's casket. Each of the young men hugged her, kissed her on the cheek, spoke briefly with her and moved on to the casket. Her misty light blue eyes followed them as, one by one, each young man stopped briefly and placed his own warm hand over the cold pale hand in the casket. Each left the mortuary awkwardly, wiping his eyes.

Our turn came to meet Mrs. Miller. I told her who I was and mentioned the story she had told me about the marbles. With her eyes glistening, she took my hand and led me to the casket. "Those three young men who just left were the boys I told you about. They just told me how they appreciated the things Jim 'traded' them. Now, at last, when Jim could not change his mind about color or size ... they came to pay their debt."

"We've never had a great deal of the wealth of this world," she confided, "but right now, Jim would consider himself the richest man in Idaho."

With loving gentleness she lifted the lifeless fingers of her deceased husband.

Resting underneath were three exquisitely shined red marbles.


"...love one another; as I have loved you.... By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another." John 13:34-35

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

A Season of Change

I absolutely LOVE Fall. I am so glad it is now October and there is a hint of crispness in the air. I love to go outside in the morning and just take a big deep breath. We are surrounded by beautiful mountains and plenty of foliage which makes this time of year the BEST time to live in such a beautiful place. I'm so excited about pumpkins, hay rides, corn mazes, apple cider, and toasted pumpkin seeds!! I really am giddy!! I also got some great news at work today! I am basically going to get to do less work for more money with my old boss who I absolutely adore. Not only is he good at what he does he is a wonderful person to boot. How lucky can I get?? I thank God so much in these times of financial stress for our entire country that I am so blessed with a job I actually like!
Rene' and I are still so hopeful that we are going to get pregnant soon and we are more than anything just enjoying being together. I am also blessed with a one-in-a-million guy that I get to come home to everyday. After 7 years of marriage I can still look at him and see all the things that made me fall in love with him in the first place. Not only do I love him, I really LIKE him as a person. I've always told him that if we had never fallen in love and gotten married I would still have wanted to be his friend. He is my best friend. I thank God every day for the bountiful blessings He has given me in my life. I truly want to savour each day!
Happy Fall!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Keeping The Faith....

Unfortunately we are not getting a baby this month :( My monthly "visitor" made an appearance today and I must say I wasn't as disappointed as I thought I would be. Don't get me wrong, it still hurts, but the pain is not as bad as it has been before. I totally credit the Lord with giving me this sense of peace. I have felt like God has really been speaking to me lately. Almost like a parent comforts a child, I can feel His presence when I am at my lowest. I feel His reassurance that it WILL happen. "Be patient, it will come" is what I keep hearing. I know that even though I yearn so much for a baby to come NOW, I understand that it is His plan and when HE thinks we are ready He will answer our prayers. It may not come in the timely manner we want it to, but I have FAITH that our prayers will be answered. The answers to our questions are not always what we want to hear, but true faith is trusting that even when it is NOT what you WANT in this moment that it is what is best for you. Still praying!!

Monday, September 8, 2008

Shawn McDonald

Wow, is all I can say. I don't know if I am the last one on this bandwagon but I just recently stumbled across this phenomenal artist! Shawn McDonald! He is absolutely incredible and has a great story and testimony about how God changed his life. His songs are sooooo well written and really "speak" to your soul. I watched a small piece about him on television a while back and was just really taken with his story. As a child he was basically abandoned by his parents, left to be raised by his grandparents. As an act of rebellion he fell into the world of drug abuse and drug dealing. He got into trouble with the law and God spoke to him. He picked up a bible that was given to him as a child by his Grandmother. The first verse he read spoke of "Cleaning your house of the demons" He took that piece of scripture and rid his house of all his demons, his drugs, then 2 days later his house was raided by the police and they found....NOTHING! He then took a friend up on an offer to attend church and from then on has let God lead his life. He is now married and has a beautiful little son. He is such a great example of the work God can do in someones life! His music is absolutely AMAZING. Go to Itunes and download the above album, Simply Nothing, and then download his new album, Roots! You won't be disappointed with either one. My favorite songs are Gravity, Beautiful,Take This Life,(Simply Nothing),Time,Wash Me Clean,Waltz in 3,Greed,(Roots). Go give him a listen!

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

I Feel Like A HEN!!!!!

Rene' and I have recently started TTC again and so far, so GOOD. We got an Ovulation Predictor Kit and we FINALLY got a smiley face : ) So, in the next 48 hours I should ovulate and we are SO excited. I told Rene' it's pretty ridiculous how excited I was to get the smiley on the OPK, just imagine how I will be if I ever get a positive pregnancy test!!!! Just a little background, I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) a few years ago and basically what this means is that I am NOT supposed to ovulate. However, over the past year or so I have had perfect cycles but never got a positive "LH Surge" on an ovulation test. But something just told me that this is going to be the year. I have actually felt my body changing through my ovulation cycle and just thought we would give it another shot. So hopefully we will have some good news to report soon! Keep us in your prayers!

Friday, August 22, 2008

Where has all the time gone?

Tonight Rene' and I went to eat with Melanie (pictured above) and Shane to celebrate Melanie's 30th birthday. We have been friends since I was 12 and she was 16. Now I am 26 and she is 30!!!! What???? I feel like the time has flown by so fast, I mean it seems like yesterday we were riding around in her old car listening to the radio without a care in the world. Now we have jobs, husbands, she has 2 small boys, and all sorts of other "grown up" responsibilities. When did this happen? When did we grow up? I was just sitting at the table tonight thinking about how much our lives have changed in the last 14 years. Sometimes it is still hard for me to believe that we're not teenagers anymore. Does anyone else ever feel that way? Like you went to sleep one night as a kid and woke up the next morning as an adult? I feel like Tom Hanks' character in "Big"! I wouldn't trade anything I have now to go back to childhood though. I kind of like being a grown up. I guess.

Happy 30th Birthday Moosie!

Thursday, August 21, 2008

A Little Introduction....

I am new to the blog world and thought I should start off with a little "About Me" post. I am not sure what I am actually doing, so bear with me as I try to figure this all out! I keep asking myself am I really interesting enough to be a blogger? I live an everyday ordinary life with my hubby and fur babies and for some strange reason seem to spend the majority of my life working! How can we change that?? I live in a place I can now appreciate as being one of the most beautiful places on earth and try everyday to appreciate my beautiful surroundings. (Even if I am only seeing the sites through my windshield on my way to work!) My husband and I have been trying for children for a few years now, so far without any luck. I was diagnosed with PCOS a few years ago and have had to face the infertility issues caused by this disease. We want children more than anything, but we are learning to accept that we may not be parents. My husband would be the most wonderful father and I want so much to be able to fulfill that dream for him. However, we are not Mr. and Mrs. Mopey, we are happy in our life together and if God so wishes to answer our prayer one day with a child we would be ecstatic. It is His will, not ours. We have placed this in His hands and can only pray that He chooses us to be parents one day...