Thursday, October 23, 2008


Just a little update on how things are going....first of all I want to thank everyone for their prayers and sweet comments about my Mom. We went to a neurologist last week and it his oppinion that she does NOT have Alzheimer's! Praise the Lord! He seems to think she had an episode of "Transient Global Amnesia" and that it was more than likely a one time incident. Her spirits have lifted quite a bit and so have mine! Even though I was telling myself I could handle whatever happened I am so glad we won't be facing such a devastating thing as Alzheimer's. I REALLY do appreciate everyone that reached out to us and offered support. Thank You!

Now on to more exciting things...we are still actively trying for our "miracle" and I am going back to see the fertility specialist next week to discuss IUI. This is the most "affordable" option for us right now and the least invasive. Has anyone had any experience (good or bad)with this that you would be willing to share? I can use all the advice I can get!

Things are really crazy for me at work right now, we are going through a transition and so many people are worried about the future of our company. I am trying to take it all in stride and not worry, but anyone who knows me knows I WORRY. I just pray that things will work out and that this economy of ours will pickup soon! Lord knows we need some change!

Have a great weekend everyone!

Response to Anonymous:My Mother takes Pravachol (Pravastatin)-she has been on it for a little over a year now (she had an MI last August) Are there some links to these drugs and TGA??

Amanda-we went to see Dr. Gibson @ Northgate Neurology, thanks so much for your sweet words!

Thursday, October 16, 2008

I wish I could take it all away...

As stated in my last post my Mother was diagnosed last week with Alzheimer's disease. We have been told she is in the early stages and was prescribed a medication to help slow the progression of the disease. I know this is not exactly the kind of thing people like to read on blogs, but I feel like this is an outlet for me to let go of some things that have really been bothering me. This is in no way intended to reflect negatively on my Mother. I love her more than life itself, despite our past or anything that has ever happened between us. With that said, she has always for as long as I can remember been a pessimistic person. Things have always been doom and gloom from her perspective. I think a lot of that stems from the abuse and mistreatment she suffered at the hands of her own parents. She has never been able to let those things go. Instead of carrying the scars of her past with her she has enabled them to become open wounds that are literally eating her alive every day. With this recent diagnosis she has really reached new lows of disparity. She is extremely depressed and at this point has driven me to tears several times. I am trying to understand and sympathize with her feelings, but I just don't understand the NEGATIVITY. She has asked me several times, "Well, what if it was you?" and I have really pondered that question a lot lately. I know that you can never really predict how you are going to react in a situation that you have never been faced with but I can tell you this. I would be thankful for what I still had. A family that not only loved me, but was willing and ready to tackle this head-on with me, and most importantly a God that is willing to carry these burdens for me. She has lost this somehow and I just feel like she is so empty inside. I want to help her. I want to make all this go away. But I am not humanly capable of taking this all away. And it's killing me. I know this may sound selfish of me but I cannot handle the emotional burden that she is placing on me with her negative thoughts and words. I have been praying and praying for God to give me some kind of wisdom or thought process to help me deal with this. I know we can and WILL handle the disease, but her heart I'm not so sure I can fix.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Prayer Needed!

We got some really scary news today in my family. My Mother was diagnosed with early onset alzheimer's disease with dimentia. She has been prescribed something I have never heard of called the Exelon Patch. It is supposed to slow the progression of the disease or keep it from getting worse.The doctor also advised it would be a good idea for her to retire. Tomorrow is her 62nd birthday and she has been a nurse for almost 30 years. Her work is her life. This is such a scary time for her I'm sure, but also for our family. Please pray for us.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

25 Things That Make Me Happy....

I have seen this on a few other blogs and thought it was a nice way to share what makes you happiest!

25 Little Things That Make Me Happy

1.Shopping for gifts (especially baby gifts)
2.Baking (cakes,cookies,cupcakes)
3.The smell of new shoes.
4.Curling up on the couch with my hubby.
5.A freshly groomed puppy.
6.Children's laughter.
7.My Car. I LOVE cars and driving a little too fast!
8.My husband's cologne.
9.Clean towels.
11.Ink Pens (blue ones)
12. Cute thank you notes.
13.Pictures in frames.
14.Library books.
15.Fresh cut grass.
16.Sunshine through the clouds.
17.Long showers.
18.Old friends.
19.Good smelling shampoo.
20.Long weekends.
21.Ice water.
22.SWEET Tea.
23.Sleeping with the windows open.
24.Soft blankets.
25.Family gatherings. (Even when it's not a holiday)

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

My DREAM Nursery!

So, Kelly (the best blogger EVER) had the idea that we should all do a tour of our nursery, or in my case, my DREAM nursery that will hopefully be fulfilled soon!

In an ode to "The Sound of Music", These are a few of my favorite things......

I think this is such a beautiful crib! I love the four posters and the little bunny finnials on top just make it all the more precious!!

I LOVE this bedding! I love the color combinations of the pink and green and all the frilly little details like the rosettes on the dust ruffle!

This is a monogrammed armoire that would provide so much great storage and ya'll know how we southern girls love ALL things monogrammed!

Aren't these the most adorable things ever?? I love painted artwork in nurseries and these have the colors of pink and green that would be the main color scheme. Plus they are so darn cute!

This is a changing table that just so happens to look like a magnificent piece of furniture. I would love to have classic pieces in her room that could "grow" with her. The top is removable so this could be used later on as a dresser. Maybe hang a venetian mirror on the wall behind sweet!

Now what princess room would be complete without a chandelier?? I think this one is so elegant but still young looking. Plus it's sparkly!

I love area rugs in nurseries. I think they make it so much more cozy. I love the diamond design on this one and of course the colors....PINK and GREEN!

Custom name plaque to hang over the crib....ours would say A R V ! Yay!

Beautiful little bookcase to house the MANY books our child would have. I love this style and think it looks SO feminine.

And what fabulous nursery would be complete without a big ol' comfy chair! I love the fabric on this one and think it would such a great place to curl up and relax on those sleepless nights!

Well, this concludes the tour of my "Dream Nursery". I had SOOOO much fun doing this and want to thank Kelly for such a wonderful idea. It does help give you hope when you can imagine all these glorious things! God Bless!!

Thursday, October 2, 2008


Has anyone else happened upon these things in stores?? They are VERY realistic looking FAKE pumpkins that you can "carve". I saw them the other day at Hobby Lobby and thought they were so neat. Especially if you don't like the whole mess associated with carving a real one. I however enjoy the whole process. Especially toasting the seeds! YUM! I just thought these were pretty cute and thought I would pass it along. They are kind of pricey though, the ones I saw were about $30!

Three Red Marbles

My sister forwarded this story to me a few weeeks ago and I have just now had the time to read it. Take a few minutes (and a tissue) and read this...

One day Mr. Miller was bagging some early potatoes for me. I noticed a small boy, delicate of bone and feature, ragged but clean, hungrily apprising a basket of freshly picked green peas.

I paid for my potatoes but was also drawn to the display of fresh green peas. I am a pushover for creamed peas and new potatoes.

Pondering the peas, I couldn't help overhearing the conversation between Mr. Miller and the ragged boy next to me.

"Hello Barry, how are you today?"

"H'lo, Mr. Miller. Fine, thank ya. Jus' admirin' them peas ... sure look good."

"They are good, Barry. How's your Ma?"

"Fine. Gittin' stronger alla' time."

"Good. Anything I can help you with?"

"No, Sir. Jus' admirin' them peas."

"Would you like to take some home?"

"No, Sir. Got nuthin' to pay for 'em with."

"Well, what have you to trade me for some of those peas?"

"All I got's my prize marble here."

"Is that right? Let me see it."

"Here 'tis. She's a dandy."

"I can see that. Hmmmmm, only thing is this one is blue and I sort of go for red. Do you have a red one like this at home?"
"Not zackley ... but almost."

"Tell you what. Take this sack of peas home with you and next trip this way let me look at that red marble."

"Sure will. Thanks Mr. Miller."

Mrs. Miller, who had been standing nearby, came over to help me. With a smile she said, "There are two other boys like him in our community, all three are in very poor circumstances. Jim just loves to bargain with them for peas, apples, tomatoes, or whatever. When they come back with their red marbles, and they always do, he decides he doesn't like red after all and he sends them home with a bag of produce for a green marble or an orange one, perhaps."

I left the stand smiling to myself, impressed with this man. A short time later I moved to Colorado but I never forgot the story of this man, the boys, and their bartering.

Several years went by, each more rapid that the previous one. Just recently I had occasion to visit some old friends in that Idaho community and while I was there learned that Mr. Miller had died. They were having his viewing that evening and knowing my friends wanted to go, I agreed to accompany them.

Upon arrival at the mortuary we fell into line to meet the relatives of the deceased and to offer whatever words of comfort we could. Ahead of us in line were three young men. One was in an army uniform and the other two wore nice haircuts, dark suits and white shirts ... all very professional looking.

They approached Mrs. Miller, standing composed and smiling by her husband's casket. Each of the young men hugged her, kissed her on the cheek, spoke briefly with her and moved on to the casket. Her misty light blue eyes followed them as, one by one, each young man stopped briefly and placed his own warm hand over the cold pale hand in the casket. Each left the mortuary awkwardly, wiping his eyes.

Our turn came to meet Mrs. Miller. I told her who I was and mentioned the story she had told me about the marbles. With her eyes glistening, she took my hand and led me to the casket. "Those three young men who just left were the boys I told you about. They just told me how they appreciated the things Jim 'traded' them. Now, at last, when Jim could not change his mind about color or size ... they came to pay their debt."

"We've never had a great deal of the wealth of this world," she confided, "but right now, Jim would consider himself the richest man in Idaho."

With loving gentleness she lifted the lifeless fingers of her deceased husband.

Resting underneath were three exquisitely shined red marbles.


" one another; as I have loved you.... By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another." John 13:34-35

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

A Season of Change

I absolutely LOVE Fall. I am so glad it is now October and there is a hint of crispness in the air. I love to go outside in the morning and just take a big deep breath. We are surrounded by beautiful mountains and plenty of foliage which makes this time of year the BEST time to live in such a beautiful place. I'm so excited about pumpkins, hay rides, corn mazes, apple cider, and toasted pumpkin seeds!! I really am giddy!! I also got some great news at work today! I am basically going to get to do less work for more money with my old boss who I absolutely adore. Not only is he good at what he does he is a wonderful person to boot. How lucky can I get?? I thank God so much in these times of financial stress for our entire country that I am so blessed with a job I actually like!
Rene' and I are still so hopeful that we are going to get pregnant soon and we are more than anything just enjoying being together. I am also blessed with a one-in-a-million guy that I get to come home to everyday. After 7 years of marriage I can still look at him and see all the things that made me fall in love with him in the first place. Not only do I love him, I really LIKE him as a person. I've always told him that if we had never fallen in love and gotten married I would still have wanted to be his friend. He is my best friend. I thank God every day for the bountiful blessings He has given me in my life. I truly want to savour each day!
Happy Fall!